I always used to look outside myself for the answers. I guess I still do at times, but these days I trust myself a lot more. The absolute Goddess Cara Alwill Leyba said it perfectly. You have everything within you to inspire yourself. I found self trust through meditation. I have dabbled in meditation for years. There were periods where I would regularly do 20 minute silent sessions, but over the years I’ve been distracted by life…and babies (or should I say baby?) and my meditation practice fell to the bare minimum. Even when I did meditate regularly I resisted it, I kinda hated it actually, I’d sit there in resistance willing the time to speed up instead of letting my thoughts float by. I persevered because I loved the feeling I got from it. Afterwards I would be on a natural high. It felt like an addiction, but a positive one because of the clarity and peace I gained from it.
Nowadays I have rediscovered meditation, and I feel committed to it. I thrive on milestones so for me tracking my progress motivates me, and whilst I primarily do silent meditation, at night I love falling asleep to a guided medi. I recently found an app, Insight Timer that has replaced my Facebook addiction. It has a massive library of guided meditations, and it has a beautiful timer that works seamlessly with my meditation sessions. I used to use the timer on my phone but it didn’t cut it, Insight Timer has a beautiful starting and finishing bell and I can time my sessions down to seconds which is crucial for me, and this is why.
When I first recommitted to meditation, I knew there was no way I could jump into 20 minutes and sit in silence without my brain going on a thought rampage. I came up with a simple strategy that I have found invaluable. I started at 5 minutes and each day I would add 30 seconds to my session. It made the transition smooth and easy, and I barely noticed the increase in time. I also find my mind adjusted, I started to let go of thoughts and really discover the gap at the end of my breath, my meditation green room, and it felt amazing to be able to get there, even if just for a few seconds at a time. I’m currently meditating for 27 minutes, and I intend to surpass 30 minutes. If I had more time in my days I might aim for more, but I’m already getting up at 4am so it doesn’t really seem realistic to extend beyond that in the future.
If you are just testing the meditation waters I highly recommend this method, it allows you to let go gently and I find myself connecting to my higher self and trusting my intuition. If silent meditation seems like a no go zone then I can recommend 20/20 Meditate for Peace. I am currently working through this (I’m up to day 11) in conjunction with my silent meditation, and I have found it to be a valuable tool. Coincidentally it adds a minute to your guided meditation session each day and includes some gentle mantras and breathing techniques. I discovered it on Insight Timer too and I highly recommend it.
I’d like to add I’m not paid by anyone I have mentioned in this post, I am recommending them because I genuinely love them, and they have inspired me to new levels and I hope they can do the same for you.