I am on a path to connect to my true self. A spiritual journey to shred everything that does not serve me and uncover my raw, beautiful self that is vulnerable, naked and in alignment with my true purpose.
I am taking this a step further, it’s not simply enough for me to look at my spiritual reflection, I need to question how I am nourishing my physical body and there is truly no better time than now.
In just a few days I am shredding the following:
Looking at that list, it seems like a lot. For me one thing stands out. I AM GIVING UP CAFFEINE! Saying that out loud shakes me to the core, it’s only going to be for 10 days, a quick reset to realign to who I am, but coffee is my vice. There is nothing I like more than my morning fix, the robust aroma of the coffee as it spills into the cup, topped up with my frothy half almond, half rice milk. It’s my heaven in a cup. Three cups is my daily fix, two full strength and one decaf, and I’m honestly not prepared to give it up. I could wean myself off it over the next few days, to erode the intensity of my potential headaches, but I don’t want to, I want to savour every sweet cup until then and make the most of these last few days. I do not have willpower, I have an addiction, and that is why I know I need to let it go. 10 days of massive self love.
I have always struggled with addiction. I used to smoke cigarettes, I dabbled in drugs, and my numero uno was alcohol. I could knock back wine like it was water, and I was not a tidy drunk, I was sloppy! It’s embarrassing to recall, but it’s also who I was, and what I needed to get to where I am today. I masked my lack of self worth and pain with binge drinking, it numbed everything and allowed me to stand tall in my victim mindset. Since I had my son I’ve been more of a two spritzer kind of girl, anymore than two standard drinks and I literally cannot get out of bed the next day. That is the universe telling me not to drink. A couple of years ago I let go of alcohol for just shy of a year, for 7 months I also let go of gluten and dairy, and it was a fulfilling, soulshining year. I didn’t have willpower then either, it was easy because I wanted to, so I simply let it go. I’m back in that place again, I don’t need, or want to drink alcohol because it doesn’t serve me. Dairy and gluten are also things I want to let go off, at least temporarily, it’s the caffeine that I am banging heads about, because I have an addiction, but it is not who I AM, it does not define me, and that is why I know I can let it go. I will support this by replacing my morning fix with natural protein packed smoothies everyday and eating foods that nourish both my body and my soul.
You may have noticed I’ve been a little quiet, I’ve stepped away from social media to dig deep into my soul. Aligning with my true purpose and raw, spiritual self. Its been an emotion packed journey and as I explore it more I will share with you some of my learnings, but for now be patient as I still have a lot deeper to go.
I’m in a truly joyful place right now. I’m deep into my spiritual path, rediscovering my love of uncovering my true self. None of what I have mentioned is serving me so while my initial plan is a 10 day shred I feel quietly confident I may surpass this. I’m excited to play in this health-centred space, without having to think about it too much. I’m so grateful I can do it as part of an incredible program with recipes and nutritional support so I do not have to think about what to cook. I love cooking when I have time, but that is a rarity, and at the moment I have so much in flow that meal planning is the last thing on my mind.
This shredding feels like a marker for the start of my spiritual detox, physically cutting out so many nasties and replacing them with an abundance of goodies. I am stripping away all that is not me. I welcome your support in this journey or better yet your partnership in diving into this with me.
Finally, I am so grateful that you allow me the space to continue to create and share my journey into who I am without all the labels and layers. It means so much to me. Thank you from the deepest part of my heart.